Saturday, October 23, 2004
Title : Haiz..
What's playing : 'First Love'..again..
Mood : Kinda looow..
Alright..continue continue..my last weekends were all spent on studying..gosh..but..i don't reali noe wat i studied cos after doing an overall view, i tink i studied a little bit only seh..haiz..remembered me n Qian motivating each other to study..hehe..kinda touching..every one hour sure spotcheck on each other de..if we were at MSN, status will be away wif the auto-message..lol..if we offline, then check on each other thru sms lor..on Sunday morning, we slept around 5 plus seh..i slept after eating breakfast de..hopefully our hard work pay off huh..^^
Hmm..ok..let's tok about this week..yeah..finally..
After eating, guess wat?..scandal messaged me..weee..>.<
All the best dear,just d0 wat u n0e,i n0e u can d0 it!rara can!
Mabel smsed me good luck before the paper..suddenly i felt kinda important..got motivated to do my best seh..Qian called to ask how's the paper..scandal checked on me after my paper, asking how's the paper bla bla bla..then a few more smses came up..
Dun fall asleep when studying ar... All e best for u paper..
Nvm at least u did ur best! coNcentrate oN ur investment paper nw! Gd luck. Mana tahu berkat ramadan.
Hrmm..well..acheli..scandal wanna meet me during my 7 hours break to get the 20 bucks from me..but i lied to him saying i didn't bring the money cos i reali wanna study..donoe y, but he was ok wif it n smsed me sumthing like.."Nvm..its ok..take kare..miz u!"..
Haiz..more concerned about me or the money?..arh..wateve..my Investment paper was at 5..till 7 sia..then on the way home, scandal smsed me asking whether i break my fast aredi anot..told him not yet..then when i got home, i was do dead tired, i didn't break my fast sia..sheesh..kinda no appetite oso..instead, i slept for an hour!..ahakz..before Max called me to ask me how was my papers..heh..it was around 8.45 i guess..then i told him i wanna wash up..so after that, i brought my food to my room n ate while online cos Qian aredi smsed me..haha..then i studied my General Insurans a bit arh..cos was too tired le..
Slept at 12.30, then acheli wanna wake up at 3 one leh..but!!!..shit shit shit..end up woke up at 9?!?!..GOSH!!!..i was on the verge of tears.. :'( .. *sob sob*..cos i reali don't haf enuf time to study sia..how to squeeze 10 chapters of dung in 3 hours?!?!..*uweeek*..so die die still study lor..haiz..then scandal smsed me..
M0rning dear..wakey2..luv u!
I replied, n juz as i tot..he asked me whether i can meet him to pass him the 20 bucks later at nite..i told him i can't cos i m tired n mebe i won't haf the mood to go out oso..*sigh*..k arh..then rite, after the GI paper, yeaaaaah!!!!..my mood shot up sia!!!..i was sooooo happy!!!..finally can enjoy myself!!!!..i went home strate n took a nap lor..then me n Qian planned to go out the next day..alright..the next day's contents gonna be dramatic huh..reader aged below 15, please, seek parental consent first..parental guidance advised..(-_-')
Went out wif Qian..Orchard..while walking around Far East, scandal smsed me asking where was i..i told him i was at Far East, n he asked me whether he can meet me to get the 20 bucks from me..i said ok lor..atleast, i can meet him for a while rite..miss him quite a bit cos one month neve meet le..
After a while, he smsed me again, saying y don't i go to the shop n pay for the CD first so that i won't waste time waiting for him, then he will come n collect the CD later..damn..was i pissed..i scolded bad word immediately sia..i mean, scolded the 'situation' arh..it took me quite a while for me to decide whether i wanna pay for the CD anot..Qian said No..logically tinking, my mind said No too..but my conscience got the better of me ah..so after paying for the CD rite, anger got the better of me, n i smsed him this:
Ok arh..wateve arh..i paid for u the CD aredi k..happy?..u make use of me..don't message me back..i won't reply
Rite there n then, i switched off my fone..for all i care!!!..obviously he has been concerned bout me, wanna meet me, all becos of that 20 bucks rite?!..argh..Rara..y u so stupid de..n guess wat?..when i switched on my henfon after like 2 hours..he smsed me..not once..not twice..but 4 times..
04:18 pm (i swiched off my henfon at exactly 4.17..i remembered..heh)
I kill myself if u d0 dis 2 me
Tanx 4 making me cry..i luv u s0 much yet u accused me 0f making use 0f u..yela..i sincerely syg u..u uat i ginie..
I cant believe u r d0in dis 2 me..dear,i haf n0 intenti0ns of makin use 0f u sey..i just ask u 2 pay 1st..nvm,s0 n0w i n0e u reali wana leave me
Well..eventually i messaged him back arh..my kind of person, soft-hearted lah sia..haiz..i told him everything bla bla bla..saying y he treat me like this sia..he said he love me, miss me..but instead of taking the effort to meet me, he told me to pay for the CD first..obviously he was more concerned wif his CD rite..haiz..n he turned the table around, saying i don't trust his love all that..he said i donoe how much he luv me..n in the end, i was the one saying sorry for making him cry?!?!..wat shit!..how m i supposed to trust him if he still has another gf?..HOW?!?!..TELL ME HOW?!?!..wanna cry sia..then he asked me y did i accuse him of making use of me..i told him everything..it goes sumthing like this..
K..look..it seems that u will only wanna meet me cos of this cos of that..tak penah we meet juz to spend time together..haiz..sedih seh..n then juz now's incident was the ultimate one..u didn't even wanna meet me for a while?..i almoz broke down sia..obviously u were more concerned wif ur CD..
He said sorry.."Sowiela dear..ok..maafkan me.."..sorry?..that's all?..he didn't provide me any explaination sia..all those times we meet, reali as to pass things to him seh..1st meeting, met him to pass a CD i burnt for him..2nd meeting, same case..3rd meeting, the Emily wallet..4th meeting, didn't even meet up..how m i supposed to believe him that he's sincere if all our meetings were based on passing this n that?..
Then being me, myself n i, i gaf in..told him mebe i overeacted n wateve shit ah..he said juz don't leave him..haaaaiz..god..i reali need some enlightenment..haiz..show me whether i shud reali stay or move on..going wif the flow juz sux u noe..u haf to play sooo many mind gamez..sad..sad..sad..
Was at home the whole day..nothing interesting happened arh..was awakened by scandal's sms..
Wat u duin dear?i miz u
Uh huh..as if as if as if..then sms each other, i told him to pay attention in class ler..or else if he fails, neve get a good job, he's not gonna get me..he smsed me this :
Haha..kuangasam..i'l d0 wateva it takes 2 marry u
You mei you gao chuo?..he reali wanna marry me huh?..then wat about Yaya?....donoe lah seh..tink that's all fer now..gonna post his pics up..keke..enjoy ba..
Wishing for a rainbow @ 2:44 PM