Saturday, November 13, 2004
What's playing : 'The Scientist' by Coldplay
Helloz..juz woke up like 40 plus minits ago at 10 sumthing..MM smsed..heh..wished me good morning, asked me wat colour baju kurung will i be wearing tomoro & wat i was doing..i was sleeping obviously..slept at 5 plus yesterday erh..he said he was forced to wake up at 7 plus to folo his mum go market..lol..reali mummy's boy lah he..now a bit kinde sleepy..will go back to sleep later i guess..
In another sms, i asked him whether he still love me anot..he said his love for me is neverending but only facing obstacles..asked him wat obstacles, & he said i shud noe..yeah i noe..i noe wat's happening..noe exactly wat's going on..then he came online a few minits ago to tell me he miss me & take care & that he wanna clean his room..i guessed he took a break from his game & decided to check whether i was online anot..hmmm..
Alrite..today morning at 4 plus, bro came online..&..he reali scolded me like hell..argh..was on the verge of tears lor..he used the F word so many times..1st time he was so damn pissed online..he wasn't very happy wif the way i m handling my relationship..but bro..u shud noe..it's always easier said than done..& furthermore..haiz..i love him u noe that..he is like the most caring & concerned guy i haf ever came across..used to i guess..u donoe..when i happened to be out wif my frens last time, he will sms me like every hour to check on me..arh..wateve it is, reali very sorry bro for making u feel this way..it's juz me..can't help it..u can't change ur Rara & make her do things against her own will..i m reali very sorry..
Neways, gonna continue last week's story..i met MM on Friday..it was a last minit decision..i was on my way to Orchard & decided to gif it a go to try asking him whether he's available in the evening..he said yah..me & Qian had planned to go Plaza Sing to watch Princess Diaries 2 acheli, but we were left wif the 1st row seats..1st row?!?!..no way..i haf heard of how Ishak complaint when he & his frens went to watch White Chicks & had no choice but to sit at the 1st row..head was gonna fall off any moment..lol..
Then we decided not to watch..so we walked around at this big DIY store (i can't remember the name..), & i bought some mini-decorations for my beloved room..i reali love my room..only when it's clean that is..lol..hmmm rite now..*looks around the room*..i guess it looks clean to me..haha..
So after that i decided to meet MM at Dhoby Gaut MRT & i parted wif Qian there..MM was from Esplanade..we met..sat & chit-chat for a while..then decided to take the train to Marina Bay & back..at that time it was as if we were husband & wife cos he was wearing formal wear wif his coat, pants & all..lol..
In the MRT..lol lol lol..we kept looking at each other, then smile smile, then look away..haha..mampoz..shy couple lah seriously speaking..haha..when we were at Bishan stop, he said it was kinde weird for me to like suddenly meet up wif him..so i decided to tell him about my agenda..that slut..the Frenster message..it took me like one stop to explain my question, & it took him another stop for him to explain himself..but explaination was not wat i wanted..
He said it has always been like this..when he is single for a while, no gerls r crazy over him..but when he is seriously in love wif sumone, so many gerls r into him..r gerls reali into attached guys?..kaoz..so that was his answer..not satisfying enuf rite..then i gotta alight liao cos MRT reached my stop aredi..snuggled & gaf him a short peck on the cheek..
Then i reached home at about almoz 8, & he called me on my fone..asking me wat was i doing..told him i juz reached home..he said it was kinde late that i reach home cos he reached like half an hour ago..well i tink he tot i purposely dowana inform him when i reached home..haha..btw, i got my exam results at 4 a.m..i passed all!!!..*weee*..congrats to me & all those who haf succeeded..
Hmmm..Saturday..was awakened by MM again..he's my human alarm clock sia..lol..smsed me to switch on the radio to this station arh..first thing that comes to my mind is,"..oh well..wat song is he asking me download this time?.."..geez..i was wrong..i was quite shocked when i tuned it to that channel..our song was playing..i asked whether it was that song he was referring to..he replied, "ouh yeah..4 u baby.."..song title?..'I Want To Spend My Lifetime Loving You'..awww..
Wait a minit..lemme rewind..i was reading thru my chat log wif Qian..spotted sumthing about me & MM crying together on the fone..it was on the same day MM underwent the eye op..the doc said he haf high blood pressure & his eye nerves r weak..he's scared..& he cried..i tink only i noe the emotional side of him..haiz..acheli i reali pity him..in skool, yeah, he mite be very famous for his playboy image & his clown-of-the-class status..but he haf been keeping problems to himself..he don't haf pple to confide in..his family r like shedding crocodile tears for him, act as if they love him..well he's living wif his auntie & uncle which he treat like his real mom & dad since he was young..his real parents r very old, 60 plus i guess..in short, he lacked his real parent's love..kinde saddening huh..haiz..
Alrite..back on track..Sunday..hmm..went to the Esplanade wif Qian..met quite late, around 4..then walked around town..i bought take-away food from LJS while Qian's food is from Yoshinoya..i almoz typed Kinokuniya..lol..we proceeded to the Esplanade to haf our dinner..after eating, we chit-chat..sang songs.."Why do birds..suddenly appear.."..lol..took pix..then i sang 'I Want To Spend My Lifetime Loving You', & i cried..haiz..juz let my tears trickle..drop by drop..it was good..yeah..let it all out..after everything, went back home..
Monday..hmm..Qian & Dawn went to find work..i didn't folo..was quite tired..& oh yah..Max called early in the morning, asked me out..wanted me to folo him go err..hotel..do sumthing that i'm not gonna elaborate here..& hep!!!..it's not that kind of stuff ok..want to do oso, die die won't do it wif him..lol..he said juz get ready & wait for his call cos he gotta go his workplace first..i didn't..i bathed & went back to sleep..haha..then Zaa called..asked me whether i wanna go cut hair..yesh i wanted..hehe..so go cut hair came back, bloody Max haven call yet..around 6 plus, he smsed..dengz sia..so late aredi..begged me to accompany him..argh..lazieee..
Then a few minits later, Max called..his house fone..-_-"..wat the hell..i scolded him siao all that..for goodness sake, it was aredi 6 plus seh..ish..so he said mebe the next day ba..sis went to Geylang that day, saw Max wif his frens..haha..Max saw sis too..later on, MM smsed me saying about sis adding him in Friendster..i juz replied a "Hmmm..'..he asked "y u hmm?..u donoe about it is it?.."..i said i hmmm not about that Friendster thingy..indeed i donoe sis add him, i juz felt that we r getting further apart..told him that..a few seconds later, he called..he said i'm spouting nonsense..haiz..wateve lah eh..
Tuesday..went to watch movies wif Amal & Wan..a last minit plan oso..met at Tampines Mall..me & Wan were damn late..sorry eh Mal..hehe..so instead of watching Shark Tale, we watched The Doll Master..Wan paid for the tix..hehe..the story..uish..scary arh..for me lah..i got shriek quite abit..lucky Wan was beside me..haha..& luckily i brought my Emily bag & my jacket..managed to 'protect' me..lol..
One thing i was unhappy about is that, some bitches in the theatre were screaming for no reason..as in, exaggerating arh..wah kaoz..slap their faces then they noe arh..then break fast, went to LJS..Mal..sorry again eh..i reali paiseh arh..cos i neve buke at pple's house before seh..hehe..reali very sorry tau..jangan kecik hati eh..next year if u jemput, i'll try to come eh..heh..n thanx for the cookies yeah..so we ate at LJS..i paid for Wan's food..then we had desserts..Amal's treat..haha..thanx again..went to Tampines Library to folo Amal renew her book..then after everything, went home..i sent a long mail thru Friendster to MM telling him how i feel about the whole relationship..
Wensday..hmm..was at home the whole day..& guess wat?..i discovered that the slut put MM's pic on her Friendster profile..gosh..no one noes how i was feeling at that time..it's juz too dramatic..i felt as if my heart was stepped upon by that slut..i reali donoe wat she was trying to imply..forced myself hard not to cry u noe..at nite, MM smsed me his reply to my Friendster message..
'Rara dear..wat a l0ng msg u wr0te me..i paham i da jarang msg u..bkn apa..pas skul i lepak ngn d0rg den alek i b0k..u n0e me kan..den my exam cuming'
Translation-wise : 'Rara dear..wat a long msg u wrote me..i understand i seldom msg u nowadays..it's not that..after skool i hang out wif ma frens then reach home i sleep..u shud noe me..bla bla bla..'
That's all?..yah that's all..Rai said the reply's so short..bro said lame..me?..no comments..haiz..i gif up..
Thursday..i was at home the whole day too..it was Deepavali rite..i woke up at 1 plus i tink..messaged MM asking wat he was doing..he was outside, helping his mum carry stuff bought for Hari Raya..at nite a bit after 8, he smsed me, asking wat i ate for dinner..then at 10 plus, he smsed again, complaint to me about his comp game..i guess i'm the only one that can tahan his rantings..lol..he played this soccer game thingy for like so many months aredi..he was a manager for a soccer team..then he was sacked, in the game i mean..meaning he haf to start the game all over again..so he was pissed..so he messaged me..haha..hmmm..
Well i tink that's it..hand is damn tired..will continue later yeah..ciaoz..& to sumone i love dearly, i love you!!!..& to sumone i hate to the core, bitch!!!..fuck off!!!..yeah..u r being used man..wahaha..lalalalalala~~~
Wishing for a rainbow @ 2:52 PM