Saturday, November 13, 2004
What's playing : 'The Scientist' by Coldplay
Helloz..juz woke up like 40 plus minits ago at 10 sumthing..MM smsed..heh..wished me good morning, asked me wat colour baju kurung will i be wearing tomoro & wat i was doing..i was sleeping obviously..slept at 5 plus yesterday erh..he said he was forced to wake up at 7 plus to folo his mum go market..lol..reali mummy's boy lah he..now a bit kinde sleepy..will go back to sleep later i guess..
In another sms, i asked him whether he still love me anot..he said his love for me is neverending but only facing obstacles..asked him wat obstacles, & he said i shud noe..yeah i noe..i noe wat's happening..noe exactly wat's going on..then he came online a few minits ago to tell me he miss me & take care & that he wanna clean his room..i guessed he took a break from his game & decided to check whether i was online anot..hmmm..
Alrite..today morning at 4 plus, bro came online..&..he reali scolded me like hell..argh..was on the verge of tears lor..he used the F word so many times..1st time he was so damn pissed online..he wasn't very happy wif the way i m handling my relationship..but bro..u shud noe..it's always easier said than done..& furthermore..haiz..i love him u noe that..he is like the most caring & concerned guy i haf ever came across..used to i guess..u donoe..when i happened to be out wif my frens last time, he will sms me like every hour to check on me..arh..wateve it is, reali very sorry bro for making u feel this way..it's juz me..can't help it..u can't change ur Rara & make her do things against her own will..i m reali very sorry..
Neways, gonna continue last week's story..i met MM on Friday..it was a last minit decision..i was on my way to Orchard & decided to gif it a go to try asking him whether he's available in the evening..he said yah..me & Qian had planned to go Plaza Sing to watch Princess Diaries 2 acheli, but we were left wif the 1st row seats..1st row?!?!..no way..i haf heard of how Ishak complaint when he & his frens went to watch White Chicks & had no choice but to sit at the 1st row..head was gonna fall off any moment..lol..
Then we decided not to watch..so we walked around at this big DIY store (i can't remember the name..), & i bought some mini-decorations for my beloved room..i reali love my room..only when it's clean that is..lol..hmmm rite now..*looks around the room*..i guess it looks clean to me..haha..
So after that i decided to meet MM at Dhoby Gaut MRT & i parted wif Qian there..MM was from Esplanade..we met..sat & chit-chat for a while..then decided to take the train to Marina Bay & back..at that time it was as if we were husband & wife cos he was wearing formal wear wif his coat, pants & all..lol..
In the MRT..lol lol lol..we kept looking at each other, then smile smile, then look away..haha..mampoz..shy couple lah seriously speaking..haha..when we were at Bishan stop, he said it was kinde weird for me to like suddenly meet up wif him..so i decided to tell him about my agenda..that slut..the Frenster message..it took me like one stop to explain my question, & it took him another stop for him to explain himself..but explaination was not wat i wanted..
He said it has always been like this..when he is single for a while, no gerls r crazy over him..but when he is seriously in love wif sumone, so many gerls r into him..r gerls reali into attached guys?..kaoz..so that was his answer..not satisfying enuf rite..then i gotta alight liao cos MRT reached my stop aredi..snuggled & gaf him a short peck on the cheek..
Then i reached home at about almoz 8, & he called me on my fone..asking me wat was i doing..told him i juz reached home..he said it was kinde late that i reach home cos he reached like half an hour ago..well i tink he tot i purposely dowana inform him when i reached home..haha..btw, i got my exam results at 4 a.m..i passed all!!!..*weee*..congrats to me & all those who haf succeeded..
Hmmm..Saturday..was awakened by MM again..he's my human alarm clock sia..lol..smsed me to switch on the radio to this station arh..first thing that comes to my mind is,"..oh well..wat song is he asking me download this time?.."..geez..i was wrong..i was quite shocked when i tuned it to that channel..our song was playing..i asked whether it was that song he was referring to..he replied, "ouh yeah..4 u baby.."..song title?..'I Want To Spend My Lifetime Loving You'..awww..
Wait a minit..lemme rewind..i was reading thru my chat log wif Qian..spotted sumthing about me & MM crying together on the fone..it was on the same day MM underwent the eye op..the doc said he haf high blood pressure & his eye nerves r weak..he's scared..& he cried..i tink only i noe the emotional side of him..haiz..acheli i reali pity him..in skool, yeah, he mite be very famous for his playboy image & his clown-of-the-class status..but he haf been keeping problems to himself..he don't haf pple to confide in..his family r like shedding crocodile tears for him, act as if they love him..well he's living wif his auntie & uncle which he treat like his real mom & dad since he was young..his real parents r very old, 60 plus i guess..in short, he lacked his real parent's love..kinde saddening huh..haiz..
Alrite..back on track..Sunday..hmm..went to the Esplanade wif Qian..met quite late, around 4..then walked around town..i bought take-away food from LJS while Qian's food is from Yoshinoya..i almoz typed Kinokuniya..lol..we proceeded to the Esplanade to haf our dinner..after eating, we chit-chat..sang songs.."Why do birds..suddenly appear.."..lol..took pix..then i sang 'I Want To Spend My Lifetime Loving You', & i cried..haiz..juz let my tears trickle..drop by drop..it was good..yeah..let it all out..after everything, went back home..
Monday..hmm..Qian & Dawn went to find work..i didn't folo..was quite tired..& oh yah..Max called early in the morning, asked me out..wanted me to folo him go err..hotel..do sumthing that i'm not gonna elaborate here..& hep!!!..it's not that kind of stuff ok..want to do oso, die die won't do it wif him..lol..he said juz get ready & wait for his call cos he gotta go his workplace first..i didn't..i bathed & went back to sleep..haha..then Zaa called..asked me whether i wanna go cut hair..yesh i wanted..hehe..so go cut hair came back, bloody Max haven call yet..around 6 plus, he smsed..dengz sia..so late aredi..begged me to accompany him..argh..lazieee..
Then a few minits later, Max called..his house fone..-_-"..wat the hell..i scolded him siao all that..for goodness sake, it was aredi 6 plus seh..ish..so he said mebe the next day ba..sis went to Geylang that day, saw Max wif his frens..haha..Max saw sis too..later on, MM smsed me saying about sis adding him in Friendster..i juz replied a "Hmmm..'..he asked "y u hmm?..u donoe about it is it?.."..i said i hmmm not about that Friendster thingy..indeed i donoe sis add him, i juz felt that we r getting further apart..told him that..a few seconds later, he called..he said i'm spouting nonsense..haiz..wateve lah eh..
Tuesday..went to watch movies wif Amal & Wan..a last minit plan oso..met at Tampines Mall..me & Wan were damn late..sorry eh Mal..hehe..so instead of watching Shark Tale, we watched The Doll Master..Wan paid for the tix..hehe..the story..uish..scary arh..for me lah..i got shriek quite abit..lucky Wan was beside me..haha..& luckily i brought my Emily bag & my jacket..managed to 'protect' me..lol..
One thing i was unhappy about is that, some bitches in the theatre were screaming for no reason..as in, exaggerating arh..wah kaoz..slap their faces then they noe arh..then break fast, went to LJS..Mal..sorry again eh..i reali paiseh arh..cos i neve buke at pple's house before seh..hehe..reali very sorry tau..jangan kecik hati eh..next year if u jemput, i'll try to come eh..heh..n thanx for the cookies yeah..so we ate at LJS..i paid for Wan's food..then we had desserts..Amal's treat..haha..thanx again..went to Tampines Library to folo Amal renew her book..then after everything, went home..i sent a long mail thru Friendster to MM telling him how i feel about the whole relationship..
Wensday..hmm..was at home the whole day..& guess wat?..i discovered that the slut put MM's pic on her Friendster profile..gosh..no one noes how i was feeling at that time..it's juz too dramatic..i felt as if my heart was stepped upon by that slut..i reali donoe wat she was trying to imply..forced myself hard not to cry u noe..at nite, MM smsed me his reply to my Friendster message..
'Rara dear..wat a l0ng msg u wr0te me..i paham i da jarang msg u..bkn apa..pas skul i lepak ngn d0rg den alek i b0k..u n0e me kan..den my exam cuming'
Translation-wise : 'Rara dear..wat a long msg u wrote me..i understand i seldom msg u nowadays..it's not that..after skool i hang out wif ma frens then reach home i sleep..u shud noe me..bla bla bla..'
That's all?..yah that's all..Rai said the reply's so short..bro said lame..me?..no comments..haiz..i gif up..
Thursday..i was at home the whole day too..it was Deepavali rite..i woke up at 1 plus i tink..messaged MM asking wat he was doing..he was outside, helping his mum carry stuff bought for Hari Raya..at nite a bit after 8, he smsed me, asking wat i ate for dinner..then at 10 plus, he smsed again, complaint to me about his comp game..i guess i'm the only one that can tahan his rantings..lol..he played this soccer game thingy for like so many months aredi..he was a manager for a soccer team..then he was sacked, in the game i mean..meaning he haf to start the game all over again..so he was pissed..so he messaged me..haha..hmmm..
Well i tink that's it..hand is damn tired..will continue later yeah..ciaoz..& to sumone i love dearly, i love you!!!..& to sumone i hate to the core, bitch!!!..fuck off!!!..yeah..u r being used man..wahaha..lalalalalala~~~
Wishing for a rainbow @ 2:52 PM
What's playing : 'Shuo Zou Jiu Zou' by David Tao Zhe
Ok peepiez..before i start, this is the 2nd time i'm typing this entry..dammit..wat the fish in the pond..ok shut up..don't luff at my misfortune ok..ergh..*bluek*
Was acheli typing my blog, when, all of a sudden, my dearest bro came online!!!!!!..oh my gawd!!!!!!..it reali took me a while to calm down sia..wat not..it has been a month or so since he came online..i missed him to the core & he didn't noe that..bloody hell u bro..yes u..i feel like punching ur face arh..c how much love i haf for u..haiz..neve appreciate me one..hmph!..
We chatted from like 12.40 am till 2.25 am like that..gosh..reali chatted alot arh..i was like trying to update him wif as much info as i can before he types the "Ok lah rara.."..which i dreaded alot alot alot; indicating that he's sleepy & wanna log off liao..ergh..i miss u loads bro!!!..muackz!!!.. k arh..after chatting wif him, i was back to proper blogging while chatting wif Qian..then when i wanted to publish my entry at about 4 plus am like that, guess wat?!?!..SESSION EXPIRED..wat the hell?!?!?!..argh!!!..i almoz killed maself huh..aredi blogged a long entry about the whole of last week sia..haiz..dammit man..
K here goes..last Monday..was awakened by MM's sms..at 5 plus a.m..then went back to sleep..keke..got a call from Qian asking me whether i wanna go join them go Novena Square cos they gonna apply for this sales assistant de job vacancy at Poh Kim..met them in the MRT, & i had a jolly good time luffing at them..lol..Qian was wearing her pink covered shoes & this pair of blue ankle socks(LOL!), & Dawn was wearing sport shoes..wahaha..neve c them wear like that before seh..
Then they applied for Poh Kim, The Body Shop & Hallmark..then decided to go to Junction 8 to check out for any other job vacancies..ended up slacking at J8's Mos Burger, playing cards..Qian was like 'showing off' her so-called magic tricks..haha..& ergh..stupid keyboard got spoilt all of a sudden at nite..so i cudn't get online & therefore i slept early i guess..furthermore sis went for her trekking overnite wif her skoolmates..
Tuesday..hmm..was awakened by MM's sms at 7 plus a.m..he was getting ready for skool..scolded him for waking me up..lol..then he replied saying :
'Alalaa..k la..mrs mamatt g0 bek sleep k..hubby w0nt kacau,up0n waking,msg me'
Mrs Mamatt..yeah was over the moon at that time but now..i donoe whether he reali meant his words..fuck arh..k back to the topic..i didn't go out one whole day..cudn't go online too cos keyboard still not working..hmm..boring day i guess..
Wensday..MM called me at 7 plus a.m..he was getting ready to go this private eye hospital..gotta remove a small growth on his left eyelid..he was kinde nervous so he called me to release his tension abit..told him to sms me once everything's over..so i went back to sleep..& around like 2 hours later, he smsed, saying everything's over..thank God..yeah thank God..hate him as much as i love him..*sob sob*..he said he was like a pirate at that moment, one eye covered..& that he was anaesthetised or wateve u call it ( i'm lazy to check it out), but then although he was like unconscious or however u spell it, he still can feel the sharp needle of a syringe going thru his eyeball..ergh..other than that, everything went well..
He said he gonna go skool to meet his frens for a while..so i said ok lor..then i went to Tampines Mall wif sis & her fren..Dannylah..lol..went to buy keyboard..yeah..at last after one day of not using the comp..me & sis juz can't tahan erh..bought this black & silver one, whose keys r juz so damn hard to press..
Nite came..MM called..he told me that he went back home wif none other than the gerl who likes him..that Mizzy Vogue..slut..k let's call her slut..erm..but that's kinda cruel..Miss V?..argh..too long..ok..slut..wateve..slut went home wif ma bf..geez..so how m i supposed to react upon hearing that?..feel elated?..so i juz said ok..atleast he told me rite..
Then he asked me wat if a gerl gifs him a goodbye kiss..oh-my-god..although it was juz like a normal qn he posed to me, i noe wat he was driving at..so i luffed abit (a forced one ok..), & said sumthing like, "..so u trying to imply that she kiss u eh?.."..then he paused for a while before saying sumthing like,"..hmmm..mebe sum things r not meant to be told..will end up breaking the person's heart..but i tell u everything didn't i?.."..yeah he did..to tell the truth..he told me everything..from a to z..even up to gerls he flirted wif for the day..haiz..so after that i tried to dismiss it by changing topic, so we chatted as per normal..
He always end the call wif "I love u Mrs Mamatt!!!.."..shud i be happy about it?..or wat?..haiz..k lah..Thursday..went out wif Rai & her hubby for this CD packer job application thingy at Bedok Cinema..took us a long while before we approached the man in charge cos there were a lot of pple..& the 3 of us is like shy semacam..lol..then after a while, it started to rain..so we 3 juz walked around Bedok area aimlessly..
Well peeps..i guess my entry this time is kinde..hmmm..moody erh?..well i juz got to noe about sumthing & will blog about it later alrite..
Then we all went to Paya Lebar to meet up wif 2 of Rai's frens..went to play pool..after that ate at New Hawa Restaurant..then after alot of halts & discussion along the way, we decided to go to City Plaza..-_-"..that place is like..geez..dare not say..for ah-mas ah-kongs i guess..no offence..lol..while in there, MM called..chatted for a while, & he was acheli in the toilet waiting for his fren to come out..erm..in the toilet then he got reminded of me?..ish..reminded me not to reach home before 10..ended the call wif "Goodbye Mrs Mamatt!!!" which i swore he shouted at the top of his lungs, & i guess the whole toilet can hear him..reali..no exaggeration..
After that we all proceeded to Geylang eventually..very crowded..hate it man..decided to go sumwhere near play poker..daidee to be exact..or is it daidi..wateve..i played a few rounds & decided to head for home cos i gotta reach by 10 ler..
OMG!!!..bro's online!!!..ok arh..stop here for now..will update more later..ciaoz..newayz Qian..thanx huh..i knew u were trying to cheer me up juz now..thanx again..
Wishing for a rainbow @ 4:20 AM