Monday, November 22, 2004
What's playing : Piano version of 'First Love'..
Geez..my second time typing this entry..donoe wat's wrong wif my IE oso ler..haiz..
K arh..start from the beginning again..i hope i remember everything dohz..i was saying that while listening to this piano version of First Love from my blog, i got kinde emotional..so this entry is gonna be about him & nothing else bout him..so any of u out there is sick & tired of reading my grandmama stories about MM, kindly please click on the 'Close Window' button will ya..i didn't force u to read yeah..
I got to noe him on the 24 of August..he got my MSN add from the Malay Frenster thingy..so he added me on MSN..& we chatted thru there, & guess wat..we reali hit it off rite from the start..had fun cracking jokes, spotting each other's typo errors & making stupid words out of the wrong words..we reali enjoyed ourselves..
Then, while chatting, he sounded me as his godsis rite on the first day itself..i accepted the 'proposal' almoz immediately erh..cos i tot it was juz an online thingy & i that i won't lose out on anything..so we continued chatting again..bla bla bla..he suddenly asked for my number..i didn't gif it to him initially..but slowly slowly, after much persuasion, i gaf in lor..furthermore, i reali don't c the harm as he was juz a godbro mah..i didn't noe giving him my fone number cud change my life forever~~~
As days passed by, the calls got frequent..sometimes, one day, he can ask me to call him like 3-4 times a day cos he is using Starhub line where there's free incoming..he can even ask me to call him while he's in skool..we were reali very happy as godsibs at that time i can say..sms sent to each other - uncountable..he will constantly check on me..neve failed to sms me every morning, either to wish me, ask me where i m/wat was i doing, or inform me that he's lazy to go to skool that day..
Sum nitez, he lied to his gf that he wanna sleep, when in fact, he wanna chat wif me on the fone juz to listen to my voice..i did scold him, saying it's not rite of him to do that cos it's unfair to his gf..but he was adamant, so i guess i reali cudn't do anything..so those nite calls, Qian shud noe, can start from 9-10 pm till 1-2 am..chatted about our daily life, his skool, my skool, his frens, his gf..sing boybands' songs to each other..& that was how he introduced to me this beautiful song called 'I Want To Spend My Lifetime Loving You'..
He always cheered me up when i was down, made me luff & evrything.. cos during that period of time, i juz 'dumped' Mahathir, & i was reali feeling very very miserable & sucky..he reali brighten up my days during those time..our relationship was perfect..
30th August..while chatting on MSN, he suddenly suggested us meeting..it took me a while before i finally agreed..i tot we wud juz meet once & that's that cos all along, he tot i muz be some pretty babe by all the pics, & wud definitely be turned off on our first meeting..sumore he's aredi attached sia..& please lor, he confirmed won't be attracted to sumone like me de..so fat & ugly..
On that Wensday we were supposed to meet..hmm..it got cancelled cos sumthing cropped up at his side..so we postphoned it to Friday..it got cancelled oso..Saturday noon..oso got cancelled cos he hafta visit folo his sis sumwhere or sumthing like that..geez..i tot we were not fated to meet at all erh..but then Saturday evening, he wanted to meet me..die die oso wanna meet..
So we met at YCK MRT..he came first..we sat at the MRT station for like 10 minits or so, chit-chatting..after a while, we boarded the MRT but we acheli didn't noe where to go..decided to go Bugis..in the MRT, he showed me pics from his henfon..of him, his frens..there was reali no feeling of awkwardness between us..
Alighted from the MRT..& he teased these 2 Chinese guys in their twenties..i reali LOL lor..cos these guys were bad-mouthing him if we're not wrong..reali had a good luff sia..haha..then we walked around..brought me to the bookstore in Bugis..Qian said it was Kinokuniya..he showed me the type of books he used to read..books by Sidney Sheldon..hmm..not bad sia my godbro, read this kind of books..
Took a neo-card too..then we went to Seiyu, proceeded to the toys' section..we were browsing thru these miniatures..cars & bikes..the way he looked at those toys..wif his eyes..makes me feel as if i was wif a small boy..so innocent..
After Bugis..we went to Esplanade, but that was only for a short while cos the place was kinde crowded..decided to go home..then in the MRT, we took pics of us..i reali tot that's gonna be our last meeting, so i intended to keep those pics i took wif him as fond memories..before i alighted, he told me sumthing that reali touched my heart..
"Sis..promise me that u will never ever leave me.."..
Wah..i was speechless for a while..i wished i cud gif him a sisterly hug, but nah..decided not to..
On the way back home, he smsed me, saying he enjoyed my companionship..me too..although he is a Mat, he behaved like any other normal guy..& furthermore, he knew that i don't like guys wearing tapered, so he refrained from wearing one on that day..kinde broke his 'rules' for a day i guess..
Then at nite, we chatted on the fone again..toking about stuff we shud & shudn't do when we met juz now..he said he wished he cud hit my head cos i was the one hitting his all the time..heez..
The next day..i taught him how to apply for Friendster account cos he was excited to post up the pics we took together the previous day..haha..so it can be said that it's all thanx to me that he haf an account now huh.. =)
Then i was acheli going out that day..so i told him to sms me if he misses me..which he did..while i was out, he smsed me like once evry 2 hours asking me where i m..asking me to take care & all that..sheesh..
The next subsequent days, he kept saying that he cudn't stop looking at the pics we took together & the neo-card..he told me he's interested in me..& i kept reminding him that he's attached lor..i mean, puhlease, i dowana be a relationship-wrecker, & i noe it's unfair to the gf seh..& furthermore, which guy wud like a gerl like me?..he muz be kidding me erh..
I mean..admit it..we r living in a media-saturated world where evrything is based on looks..it is isn't it?..in relationships..work..even when choosing frens sumtimes..i mean, if u like sumone, obviously that person muz be pleasant-looking rite?..but i'm not even halfway there huh..i noe where i stand..
But then, hard as i try, i fell for him..geez..but i didn't tell him..so all the way he tot i was acting hard to get..his care & concern reali lifted me up to cloud nine..he made me felt very important sia..smsing me a few times a day..all the 'i miss u' at unexpected timings & the 'good lucks' for my tests..
So believe it or not..i fell for an attached guy..twice..argh..i ought to be given a tight slap man..haiz..for those who haf read my entry till here, & u r attached, please hold on to ur bf tightly alrite..haha..kidding lah..
In between..we met 2 more times..the 2nd meeting was to pass him a CD i burnt for him..he requested for a peck on his cheek..which i gaf eventually..wanted it on his ear acheli..haha..wat the hell..
3rd meeting..i met him to pass him the wallet..i was wif Max before that, & MM called me..Max was like making stupid background noises, & i swore, MM was disturbed by it & he cudn't concentrate on wat he was trying to say..>.<..so we met..he showed me his holiday assignment, which i helped him to do..dengz..then before we 2 separated, he gaf me a peck wifout me noticing..erm..i mean, i was unaware that he wanna do it lah..haha..
Then one fine day, he told me he broke up wif the current one & got attached to another gerl, Yaya..gosh..i was like wat the hell lor..here he was telling me he likes me & all that, but y was he wif another gerl?..very the contradicting rite..haiz..so all i cud do was to wish him best of luck wif his new gerl..i had no rights to rebuke watsoever..
But we got a wee bit further apart..only smsed me like at nite evryday..but atleast, it was evryday..cos he met Yaya evryday after skool, & she always held on to his henfon..hmm..i understood..& furthermore, i wasn't his gf to demand all those attention rite..
Puasa time..his relationship wif his gf was reali tested..his gf wanted to concentrate on her studies cos her exams r coming..so they seldom contact each other..he will sms her like 2-3 times one day, but not even once will she reply..reason being; she's busy mugging for exams.. So he started to contact wif me more..like we used to when we were sibs..i was reali in love wif him at that time..as in..reali..
Omg..i tink i'm gonna stop for now..i juz realised that he took out all my pics from his Friendster profile..I AM DEVASTATED..
Wishing for a rainbow @ 1:37 PM