Monday, April 04, 2005
Well..la la la..I'M NO MORE A STUDENT!!!
I'm done wif skool life..is it good or wat?..unless i'm coming back for supp paper or sumthing lah..heard my fren saying sumthing like, "..haiz..later next week muz start studying for IFT supp paper aredi.."..wahahaha..wat the hell..haven even get the results but she's so confident that she's gonna flunk the paper manz..i guess i shud study too..arh..set that aside 1st lah..
I'M SO GONNA MISS SKOOL..serious..i acheli started to feel the pinch towards the end of the last exam paper..kinde stopped me from doing my paper for a while..it was supposed to be my last exam paper for my entire life by default..then i suddenly started to tink about MSG..shit me..in the middle of exams still can tink about him..ought to slam myself to the wall sia..
So the last thing i ever wrote on the exam paper was a #..it was meant to show the marker that that was gonna be my final answer..but i noe it's gonna be wrong anyways..so juz heck about it lah eh..
I tink this post is gonna be nothing but skool..i'm suddenly in such an emotional state lor..sumore listening to this Lonely song..haiz..like MSG's MSN nick some weeks back.."34 months..37 modules..1 diploma..This is it.."..this is it?..that's all?..time reali pass by damn freaking fast when u least expected it..but..is this reali the end of my education?!?!?!
Yes it is..no more books for me..no more tutorials..no more lectures..no homework..no projects..& no MSG..*sob sob*..i tink the next tym i'm gonna meet him again is either on IFT supp paper if he or we happened to take, or earliest, on Graduation Day..rite now i'm still unsure whether our 'soccer date' is still on anot..haiz..
Hmm..i'm gonna touch on my skool memories lah..
Wait a minit..before continuing, kindly switch off all pagers & handphones or put them to silent mode..prepare some coffee or sandwiches or watever..it's gonna be a bloody long entry, so don't say that i didn't warn u k..& don't forget to glance thru the pics i've posted below the entry yeah.. =D
Alrite..here goes . . .
During my 1st semester in Year 1, i was a geek & a nerd & a helluva decent innocent girl..reali..looking at my NYP admin card now, i can't believe that was me back then..my face was like -_-''..wif thick glasses & evrything..& i had no fashion sense..k as if i'm any better rite now..haha..
On that 1st year, i was always clad in cargo pants or shorts, sucky tees u won't see on the streets, & sandals..yes..sandals..that kind where the guys always wear that type lah..don't luff lah..told u i was a nerd back then wat..*grrr*
I wasn't reali exposed to the outside world..Orchard was a place i seldom go..or shud i say, i never reali go..i used to tink it was a city full of high-rise buildings & that only the rich & the cool people go..i didn't even noe Bugis & Suntec City existed..sad to say, i had zero social life..
Overall, my 1st year was such a bleaurgh..i was kinde work-oriented..& it was always home sweet home after skool..my circle of frens was oso limited..i was always wif Prem or Inda..but then halfway, my circle of frens got bigger..i made frens wif students from other classes, in the same lecture..namely Kanch..Chee Yong, & Manoj..skool life evolved around them & they reali rock my world..
Bla bla bla..me one stupid idiot girl fell for Chee Yong, or oso sweetly (PUI!!!) known as Yong Yong..donoe wat i see in him oso..but i reali liked him back then..then some incident happened between me & Manoj, & we didn't contact each other again..haiz..he was my closest guy fren at that point of time..always sat beside each other during lectures, cracking jokes, etc..we were even regarded by my classmates as a couple.. >_<''
Erm..it was acheli a sexual request..*gasp*..i rejected him, & we didn't contact each other after that..wat a waste on our frenship..the fresnhip we had build was down the drain juz like that..neways, exams at that time was kinde chicken feet cos, as u can see, i was a good girl..& still is lah..haha..
Year 2 was a big leap for me wif the existence of TEP..all of us were separated into difren classes, & half of the year 2 students were 'forced' to work for the skool wifout any pay watsoever..in simpler terms, free labour..but it changed my life thoroughly i muz say..my circle of frens in skool increased from about 5 to more than 50..yeps..that big..1st i was put into this SPBW team..Special Project for Bodywatch..
Here was where i got to noe Qian & her clique, the SW peeps, & many others..it was the most slackiest period of my entire poly life i tell u..we were the backroom support for our skool's gym, & our main task was to do a research on sumthing health-oriented that can benefit the gym..that sure sux a lot considering that i don't do sports..
That aside, evrything else was fantastic..we were on our own like 95% of the tym..no time-table..no teachers..nothing!..it was slack all the way all the time..we roamed the skool a lot, like lost souls..haha..we had a daily routine..early morning was nasi lemak for breakfast at the North Canteen..then after that, we'll proceed to Block G for our power nap..hee..
Qian..u still remember..before we enter the room, sure muz buy a packet of Skittles or a bar of Snickers one..keke..then we'll nap or do our own stuff till about 11 plus..& off we go for lunch!!!..after lunch, it was Kiss MTV & Neopets time..wahahah..we can play that MTV like..FOREVER..& we even created a Neopets account for our team..so sweet rite.. ^_^
I muz say that the whole team was inseparable..EXCLUDING that Sembawang Bitch though..that arrogant, proud but pretty bitch..grrr..she practically looked down on the 4 of us juz becos she's one damn pretty & rich brat..*bleahz*..but she got closer to us later on, which we 'appreciate' so much..
After SPBW, i proceeded on to FSRC while Qian went to BSSC..wah..slacked a lot oso..& i can't believe that i was appointed as the 2nd HR admin to mark attendance & take down late-comers for the group, considering that i myself was always late for skool..keke..so it's like, u noe, whoever come earlier than me is considered early lah, regardless of the time..haha..
In FSRC, almoz evrybody was united..when one is late or absent, evryone will cover up for him/her, etc..we had our pizza session & a barbecue towards the end of the stop-over..for the pizza session, each of us forked out only 4 bux while Simon paid the rest..he blanja us after winning some money thru 4D or Toto..damn good rite..
As for the barbecue, although only a few pple turned up, it was still fun..yours truly was the organizer btw..hee..meaning i was in charge of booking the pit, buying the necessary stuff, bla bla bla..in short, i was in charge of evrything.. *_*
Was damn glad everything went on as planned..except that, erm, the pit that i booked was located in some ulu place of Changi Beach.. -___-'' ..cos basically, there were no more pits available, so i had no choice but to book a pit at the far end of Changi lor..still can't forget the part where the 8 of us had to squeeze into Ivan's car when going home that tym..huahuahua..wat a sight! o_O
After FSRC, it was KM..& it Qian went to EDP..oh yeah, by this tym, i had aredi 'heck care' about Yong Yong & found a new beau..lol..beau my ass..me & Qian called him Jerry..he was shuai & evrything..kinde charming..at that point of tym, the day won't seemed to be complete if i neve get to see him or catch a glimpse of him..i was soooo into him.. I
sat beside Norman in KM..& my daily schedule was like, wait for Qian's miss call at about 9..off we go for nasi lemak..then go back to our own rooms, then we'll update our Yahoo Group..acheli, it was from there that the name Raraval was formed..i like the name very much sia..Val was Qian's English name..so Rara + Val = RARAVAL!
Me & Qian treated this e-group like an online chat thingy..damn..we didn't noe E-MSN can be used in skool at that time..ergh..& she even created this 'Starry Starry Night' story, based on me & Jerry..oh well..it was fantasy all the way..cos the stuff she wrote won't happened in a zillion years.. >_<
Although i had to wake up like 6 plus 7 to go to skool, i can say that i enjoyed skool very much..it was like a vacation for all of us, & it was TEP that made me socialize a lot wif other pple from other courses..like now, even though Qian is not from the same class & the same course as me, she's one of my best fren manz..i guess all these were fated huh..
If i wasn't in SPBW, i wudn't haf met her..i will haf a difren clique & wud haf hanged out wif a difren group of pple..& during weekends, only-God-noes-wat i will be doing wif only-God noes-who..& who noes, i might haf hate Qian or sumthing..haha..cos she gaf me quite a wee bit negative 1st impression wif her Ah Lian look..keke.. =X ..didn't noe she is acheli a sweet thing.. =)
And so, as for Year 3, my final lap of tertiary life, it brought along loads of good & bad memories..at 1st, the class wasn't that united..we all formed difren small cliques..i was always wif Nurul..then slowly, after we were grouped for projects, small cliques started to get bigger..
Me & Nurul formed a clique wif Huda & Zach after our CRM project during the 1st semester..then Sofyan wud join our clique sumtimes (when he has nowhere to go..lol..)..at 1st, at some point of tym, there was awkward silence among us, but as time passes, we all started to confide in each other..
Nurul wud tell us about her bf who's in NS, & how her bf was always sick & allowed to book-out..Huda wud always tell her about her bgr probs..cos it seems that whichever guy she went out wif, sooner or later, it seems as if the guy wud be 'sick & tired' of her, & the guy will like, ignore her & didn't call or meet her for quite sumtime..
When she encounter these kind of situations, she wud haf scandals who came by themselves, or so she claimed..then as for her bf, whenever she wanted to initiate a break-up, then the idiotic guy will beg her not to leave him..wat the fark..
She was always in these kind of dilemma..& it was not only once u noe..she said she has been in the same kind of situation in almoz all her past relationships..kinde weird how these things can happen repetitively..haiz..juz her luck..
I told her to break up wif her current bf, & she's in the process of doing it cos it seems that she cudn't get hold of him like ALL THE TIME..whenever she calls her bf thru the house fone, his bro wud either say he's out or sleeping..chao!..like fark rite..own gf oso donoe where he goes all that..& it's like, he didn't even make any effort to call her back..kaoz..
Then Zach wud always tok about this bus-gerl whom he like for quite sumtime..he always saw this gerl in the bus when he's on his way to skool..then we gerls wud tink of ways for him to tackle that gerl..haha..& as for me..well..i'm always the one cracking jokes..heh..cos i don't reali open up my feelings to them..
But i did tell them about MM & W to show them that these kind of pple acheli exist in real-life..how amazed they were when i showed them the testimonials on Friendster one day..they were surprised indeed wif wat those sluts wrote..like as if i wasn't..those whores had nothing else to write but vulgarities, vulgarities & more vulgarities..
Well i guess it was due to limited vocab..haha..like i said to them in my Friendster profile, "..it was understandable as we noe ITE pple usually haf limited vocab.." ..>_<"..geez..i suddenly haf this sudden strong urge to write about those dogs sia..k mebe i'll blog about them in my next entry..haha..
Kk back to my skool life lah eh..then when we proceeded on to Semester 2, evryone was sooo close to each other..but there were some enmity btwn some cliques lah..& here was when i became quite good frens wif MSG too..cos during the holidays, we were always chatting on MSN, gossiping about our classmates, discussing about almoz evrything under the sun..it was a must kind of thing to chat wif him evryday..
It was acheli him who started the 'trend' though..cos before he logged out or anything, he'll never fail to wish me goodnight or disturb me for a while..these short chats became sumthing that i looked forward to evry nite..i was kinde glad that he was the one to MSN me 1st most of the time..
My classmates regarded us as husband & wife cos we were always seen together..i mean, we are close but not that kind of close lah..i enjoyed his company & he loves disturbing me..we were always having childish fights on MSN, smsed each other during lessons when it starts to get boring, or chat on a certain website during lab lessons..he wud oso unexpectedly gif me miss calls during lectures..
Well that's all..
Donoe how i got my feelings mixed up, & WHAAAM! I fell. For him. Going online wifout his existence seems kind of meaningless..i mean, not to that extent lah..haha..sound so exaggerating seh..as in, it became a compulsory thing for me to chat wif him online atleast once a day..
Once he even asked me out to town to see the Young Lions, but i had to reject him cos i had other plans..like wat the toot rite..haiyer..stewpid me..*bang wall*..then he'll update me on the latest scores for S-League..well..as if i'm interested, but i had to act as if i'm interested lah..huahuahua..
We had heart-to-heart chats, like when he told me he had a crush on this gerl, C*****, & he wud tell me about her, etc..& after much persuasion, he finally showed me her Friendster profile..at that point of tym, i still haven like him more than a fren yet, so i wasn't reali bothered lah..sumtimes, in the middle of lessons he wud sms me like, "I miss C*****" that kind of stuff..
Then slowly, i realized i get a bit restless whenever he changed his nick to 'Kaka & Kiki' or 'I love you Kiki'..sumtimes after skool, when we were going home, he said he's gonna haf a date wif Kiki, & i'll like, "..haiyer..always Kiki sia.."..i donoe whether this Kiki existed or not in the 1st place, but i sure felt a tinge of jealousy whenever he mentioned this Kiki..
ARGH!!!..can't platonic love reali exist in this world?!?!?..haiz..i reali hate myself u noe that..i seemed to fall for guys who are close to me..dammit rite..i donoe wat's wrong wif me oso..& now i'm like going bonkers..cos of MSG..
I donoe whether it's reali the truth or i'm juz tinking too much..it seems that he's avoiding me..i donoe..we seemed to haf lesser stuff to chat about..sumtimes, we don't even chat on MSN although we are both are online..like wat sia..& only God noes wat's going on in my mind rite now..total mess..
Waaaaaaaaah..this entry damn bloody the long lor..haaaaa..i had typed evrything on a Word Doc cos i'm afraid that my comp will auto shut down by itself..it ONLY does that when i'm engrossed in sumthing..always & forever like that sia..
CONGRATULATIONS TO THOSE WHO HAF READ THIS FAR!!! *applause*
Ought to be proud of urself for reading my whole load of junk wif boring English & grammatical errors..hahaha..& do tag if u happen to read till the end wokiez..
I guess that's all for now..gonna update another one soon..my hand is itchy witchy..haha.. =p
* However near..however far..I think of euu wherever euu are *
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